jesuschick11

Current Mood: cheerful

aloha 2day waz ok i suppose....well, it waz more than ok cuz 2day i actually had a good day! how suprising iz that?!?! well cant wait til may 12th--MEXICO! almost evry1 i kno iznt going i waz omg how can u not wanna go 2 mexico?!?! u kno? wel yeah evry1 luved my new sunglasses! lol yes i so <3 my new sunglasses hehe jk lol....nehow i called lori up like yesterday i think asked her how the dance waz and u kno i get all these details like bout u kno the whole nite, rite? so 2day @ skool i ask jesse and alex. jesse doesnt hear me but alex answers with 1 single word.....fun. thats it. nothing else. i waz like omg! how iz it that i call up lori i get the whole details but then i ask u and u jus say fun? and then garret jus starts laffing @ me im like u guyz suck and then math waz pretty fun cuz duh mrs tylers class lol omg i <3 her so much lol yeah well shes telling the class bout her youngest son derek--he does track, and soccer and modeling nehow shes telling us bout the latest modeling show that waz on sunday and omg i so wanna go 2 1 or sumthing he so cute and as mrs tyler puts it "hes sucha ham!" hehe lol nehow yeah wel 2day n pe i had 2 talk 2 coach holland cuz i needed him 2 sign my paper and im like well, since ive broken the silence ill go talk 2 him and so me and kyri go up 2 him and i go so coach holland how waz ur 5 days of not talking 2 me and hes like perfect and im like uh?!?! ur mean and hes like i wonder if u can do 5 more days and im like grr coach holland u make me mad and im not gonna talk 2 u nemore unless i have 2 so im having kyri ask him all these qs and then he stands up and i splash his chair but he didnt come back and sit down so when it waz time 2 go n i had kyri ask coach holland y he hates me so much and then hes like i dont hate her and then i had her ask him y he waz so mean 2 me and hes like im not mean 2 her and then im all psh yeah rite 2 kyri and then yeah we left then during break nothing happened really. spanish waz boring--duh--so 2day i gopt 2 stay 4 lunch!!!!!! i waz so happy cuz i get 2 stay 4 lunch mondays wednesdays and fridays! yeah lol yep yep well that waz my lovely day....g2g so yeah here r piucs 4m the skit me, my lil bro and this grl named jessica did @ the church talent show 2 along came jones...tt4n, luv alwayz and 4evr, famet <3

fat me aka jones the cowboy coming 2 rescue jessica

fat me ''saving'' jessica

my lil bro chasing jessica

my lil after stuff jessica aka sweet sue n a sack

me ''beating up'' my lil bro aka salty sam

the end....fat me waving 2 the crowd next 2 jessica!

Current Mood: crappy

aloha evry1 omg im so glad it didnt rain 2day cuz i wore my hair down and omg i wore my daddys hott western button up shirt ovr my light blue tank top with my tight pants and my leather belt and omg i looked so hott! lol im jus kidding ive never looked hott n my life--ive looked hot, not hott...u kno when the suns out and im sweating, thats when ive looked hot lol im jus kidding. that waz corny but i get the corny jokes 4rm my daddy lol--yeah well 2day i feel like im getting sick. u kno that clammy feeling and then my nose has been stuffy and then yeah well yeah i jus feel like a big pile of cow poop....2day iz horrible--the whether i mean--but yeah nicole waznt at church 2day so i called and asked and then told her bout the 3rd and last group date coming up.....MAY 6TH!!!! cant wait, its gonna b pizza and a movie.....michelles gonna go so hey at least i have 1 friend thats going and omg i hafta call megan and tell her. after church either brit or nicole called i couldnt tell cuz it sounded like both of em and the number waz restricted so i dunno if when nicole calls 4m her house if the number iz restricted but o wellz i guess.....ill call em both even tho im still grounded 4 ummmm 1 more week! heck yes! srry, im so excited bout the fact im ungrounded n 1 week haha and i talked on the phone all the time lol yeah well evry1 iz tired 2day cuz evry1s been fiting--n the fam--yeah well im so tired and im not supposed 2 b on the comp lol so yeah g2g now tt4n luv alwayz and 4evr, famet <3

ps....pics 2day! me and lori doing the chacha slide on april 16th--the talent show that waz @ my church....

us doing the funky chicken...i look like my pants r falling off but its jus a shadow lol!

us clapping 2 the song....yes my fat stomach hanging out of my shirt--omg im so FAT!

us walking off stage--once again my fat stomach hanging out of the shirt and i look like a doofus! IM SO FAT....REALLY REALLY!!!!

Current Mood: cold

heyyyyy omg its freezing....FrEeZiNg.....FUH-REEZING!!!!!!! well my day waz actually pretty busy i woke up ropund 7:00-ish cuz i dunno lately ive been having trouble with sleeping. not fun. takes me bout 2 whole hours 2 get 2 sleep i didnt get 2 sleep til bout 12:00-1:00 n the morning so basically i only got 5-6 hours of sleep. fun....so im really really tired 2day but nehow, i sat round and watched tv--no wonder y im so fat lol but nehow then my younger bro and my sis left 4 a parade (ahaha they had 2 march lol!) but nehow then me and my mom left 4 a bridal shower roung 11:00-11:30 and didnt get there til round 12:00-ish so nehow jenette (i <3 her!) waz there i miss her already! lol but nehow i hooked up with michelle-shes a senior, jenettes an 8th grader lol and i talked 2 jamie and julie (9th grader)...the bridal shower waz FULL of ppl 4m church fun fun fun and me and michelle and jenette sat on the stairs and watched sarah open more then 40 bridal shower gifts and after a while omg my butt got so numb so i got up and course snacked on the refreshments. another reason y im so fat oops nehow then michelle left and i found a seat by my mom that waz CUSHIONED (i think sitting on the stairs flattened my boot-ay jk lol) but nehow and then i kept going back and eatting-duh, im SO FAT--and then we left after the presents were opened and omg i 4got guess wat i found out LOUS ENGAGED! she waz proposed 2 last nite! theres a pic of her n the entry 4rm yesterday but nehow i got home then went with my mom and sis 2 ikea i waz so NOT happy bout that but nehow it waz ok 2wards the end and we went out 2 mcdonalds and i got a big n tasty--yet ANOTHER reason y im so fat--and now im home and i tried calling brit but shes not home and i tried calling lori no suprise shes with alex--that waz mean but really, she saw him all last nite and all last week! srry--nehow i figured casey would b with jesse so i didnt even try calling her. I JUS WANNA KNO HOW THE DANCE WENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nehow, omg yesterday went with my mom 2 go shopping 4 sarahs bridal shower gift and we went 2 target and omg i got these hott sunglasses with tiny studs on the side--the sunglasses r black--and nehow they were only 10 dollars! thats good! lol yeah well im soooooo tired wish i knew how the dance went o and sumthing else, yesterday nicoles mom called me and asked if i had heard 4m nicole cuz it waz getting dark and she didnt kno where nicole waz so i kept trying 2 get a hold of gina 2 ask her or have her ask ray but after sileint prayers nicole called me on rays celly so i had her call her mom and then i called her mom 2 make sure that she had ndeed called her and nicole had so yeah it waz sooo scary kinda and i waz like omg where iz she but thats alrite i luv her! lol well yeah got 2 tt4n luv alwayz and 4evr, famet <3

ps no pics 2day

Current Mood: cold

heyyyyy yeah well im tired and like really really cold....2day waz kinda blah, i mean i waz really tired and stuff and yeah well math waz kinda funny cuiz like 4 the 1st uhhhh 30 minutes i guess we jus talked bout like the testin gand how we think we did and then we talked out hoe our week had been and stuff like that the whole time tho i waz texting my dad and anita and yeah that waz funny....then me and gina did our hw during the last half hour of the class when mrs tyler left 2 pick up her youngest son derek cuz he got sick or sumthing like that and mr parr came n and subbed til she came back. all the seniors and a few juniors 4m the fh team thought that mr parr waz the hottest teacher on the planet, hes not all that gr8 looking lol then pe we froze our boot-ays off! it waz fuh-reezing and then it started drizzling so yeah that waz o so fun but hey, it waz freeplay the whole day. then spanish waz murder i swear i mean i waz so tired 4m pe that i couldnt concentrate on nething i even 4got my spanish book n mine/kyris locker so i got point taken off 4 that and i waz like o man o well i still get good grades on the hw and classwork and stuff so i guess ill b fine. then i waz supposed 2 go 2 the fh meeting but then it waz moved so i went 2 the career center 2 c if i could get sum things 2 ncrease my chances of getting n2 uc davis when im a senior, but no1 waz there. so then i went 2 the lunch spot and waited 4 my older bro cuz he takes me home evryday after skool. he has no 4th as well....so there i am talking 2 kyri walking n circles and my arms r seriously purple im so cold and my hair waz still wet 4rm swimming but the sad part iz, it waz funny! i mean i waz turning purple! yeah well i thought it waz kinda funny then yesterday i went 2 a lil bit of kyris lacrosse game but then had 2 go 2 the pool and ewww guys n speedos but kyri stopped by after her game and said hi, had sum of the hot dog i had jus bought and then left and so i walked ovr 2 my dad who waz timing, gave him his hot dog and ate mine--the 1 i let kyri take a bite out of. then nicole found me and i watched her and then i found ray and joe so i jus hung out with them and im all laffing hard cuz nicoles taking them off on this whole guilt trip bought how they were thinking bout leaving and shes like well i thought u guyz were gonna support me and stuff and omg it waz funny then while joe and nicole were 2gether--they go out--me and ray were talking and then nicoles mom came and we had this fun convo and ray scared me--duh--but yeah. and ray gave me a back massage and then he gave 1 2 nicole and nicole told ray 2 teach joe how 2 give gr8 back massages and yeah then we talked bout a whole bunch of other things. and omg! i found out that ray has never seen me with my hair down. i did not kno that so, im gonna wear my hair down after swim iz ovr so he can c cuz ive known him since smmr break of 2004 and i cant believe he hasnt seen me w/ my hair down! yeah well, g2g now, more pix of the group date numero dos even tho that waz a week ago lol tt4n. luv alwayz and 4evr famet <3

evry1 (this iz supposed 2 b the funny pic)

LtoR: lou and carlos

LtoR: russel and carlos

LtoR: stephanie and jenny

us approaching....

us even closer 2 justin.....

and us not 2 far 4rm justin!

LtoR: stephanie, jenny and justin

LtoR: stephanie and tina

laura and kim waving hi 2 justin

corey (the only guy),amanda (in the black and pink), laura (the dramatic 1 lol), and kim jus smiling =)

kim n red,laura waving

Current Mood: blank

heyyyy 2day waz the last day of testing heck yes!!!!!!!!!! lol yeah well 2day waz a lil better then testing lol no it waz SOOOOO much better then testing hehewrote a poem the other day its really sad but i lost the paper soooo o well, guess thats 2 bad 4 me but hurray 4 every1 else lol well i get 2 go 2 kyris game 2day yeah lol i hope, i dunno. well casey brit and lori caant go 2 jwalk 2nite but o wellz yeah dont matter much i luv jwalk and mayb mr sean dude will b there even if its kinda useless cing how my friends rnt gonna b there cuz theyre supposed 2 c if he really iz staring @ me but o well rite? rite. doing my spanish hw kinda sorta. im stuck on the last 2 pages, blech. hate spanish. i hope that next yr ill senor rhea cuz hes soooo cool man and hes a christian which iz even better cuz i heard he holds christians 2 a higher standard so im excited! lol im such a loser well yeah, short entry but heres a pic of me when i waz younger lol--its like 3rd grade i think! g2g tt4n luv alwayz and 4evr, famet <3

aloha evrybody! lol not like ne1 even reads this! im such a loner 4 realz tho! as u can tell so fr i had a horrible day it waz like ignore jennie day or sumthing! so i waz like fine then ill jus not talk 2 ne1 and then like 2 pplz tried 2 talk 2 me but i wouldnt talk so they jus left. newayz and then i cant wait til jwalk 2morrow! omg i luv jwalk cuz im away 4rm evry1 thats getting all mushy mushy with thwie bfs. i swear! all the kissing makes me sick! i mean urg. my next bf, i am gonna make sure i let him kno that i am gonna balance it the time i spend with him and the time i spend with my friends and the time i spend with them both @ the same time. i mean, im not gonaa get all kissy kissy when im round my friends, u kno? and im gonna wait 1 1/2 yrs til i kiss him. if our relationship doesnt last that long well then u kno o well 2 bad @ least itll b easy 2 b friends again. that iz IF i evr get another bf....major if....nehow its not pplz faults they r hopelessly n luv i mean, guyz kno that jus by sayin i luv u the grl will practically faint! u kno? ayyy yiiiii!!!!!!!! yeah well went swimming 2day and i really dont like coach holland nemore cuz hes sooo mean 2 me! i asked him if he thought i waz loud and annoying and hes like o ur not mean im like so im annoying and hes like sumtimes and im like w/e then while swimming i waz trying 2 carry on a stupid convo with him and he wouldnt carry it on so i kept asking qs and then he got mad @ me cuz i kept trying2 strike up a convo and he said i ask 2 many qs so then im like w/e and i told him i wouldnt talk 2 him evr again and hes like sure i dont believe u and i havent talked 2 him since and i dont plan on evr talking 2 him nemore cuz he makes me mad and i swear he doesnt like me either so yeah then pplz n the pool kept ignoring me so i wouldnt talk 2 them and then i decided i waz gonna do evry1 a favor and talk as little as possible and jus pretend like i waz the only 1 there unless they wanted 2 go by me or sumthing. omg i swear it waz ignore jennie day! oy columbia. lol i get 2 babysit kimmy and kassie. theyre so ADORABLE omg and im pretty much the canterr of attention lol i dunno y they actually listen 2 me but o wellz i guess yeah watevrs then 2morrow jwalk (duh and heck yes! i <3 jwalk lol) and then friday umm staying home while my bffs go with their bfs 2 the mall or sumthing and i stay home and play on dumb old neopets--yes, im so bored i play on neopets all the time. sumtimes brit calls which iz so awesum cuz i sumtimes can get away with being on the phone even if i am on phone restriction. i dont call lori or casey cuz i kno they r prob on the phone with their bfs or theyre not home or its not their turn 2 talk on the phone (referring 2 lori on the last 1) well yeah i guess ill go kno so yeah tt4n, hate me buh bye! famet <3

LtoR: kristina, me (yes, the fat 1), and lori HOMECOMING (november lol)

Current Mood: bored

heyyyyy im on the phone with brit--not supposed 2 b but i am. im so gonna kill jesse--not really but yeah hes making me mad cuz he wont get on myspace and yeah i keep telling him 2 but he yeah he doesnt get on2 myspace. nehow.....stupid standardized testing 2morrow. blech but hey i dont hafta b there til 9:00 and then its pretty much the same length. no swim 2morrow i also promised nicole i would wear my hair down 2morrow....i guess ill take a shower @ 6:00 2nite cuz n oreder 4 me 2 b able 2 wear my hair down i hafta straighten it the nite b4 i wanna wear it straight. yeah cuz sumtimes my hair iz a pain other times its not. omg i finally figured out how 2 do things on my profile thingy! well actually brit helped....lol yeah well i mite babysit kimmy and massie 2morow--theyre so adorable! hehe yeah well i need the money cuz i dont have a steady ncome like my bro and evry1 else with a job. gosh i cant wait til im 16! i wanna work at like the moies or in n out or sumthing like that. i jus wanna get ajob so i can have money 4 once of my own and yeah mayb even pay 4 my own phone bill....i jus wanna have paid texting and i would b willing 2 pay 4 my own phone bill cuz i dunno i would jus feel special lol yeah im soooo tired and its freezing. im mad @ coach holland cuz hes making us swim on wednesday. blech. i hate swimming! o well i mean hay @ least i dont hafta swim 2morrow or thursday sooooo im all good i guess.....y iz it so freexing 2day?!?! its supposed 2 b hott and sunny and yeah stuff like that so yeah i can b happy and dream bout the beach and hott guyz haha im so jus kidding lol na i usually think bout la and when i met brandon which i would prefer not 2 cuz it makes me wanna cry cuz i miss him so much and im having trouble 4getting him. and i thought i waz supposed 2 4get bout evry guy ive evr luved, evry guy thats evr been my friend, evry guy thats evr influenced me on how i live my life--on how i act--wvry guy cept my dad and trying 2 4get jus makes life so much harder 2 live. cuz i dont wanna let go n my heart but my brain knos its useless 2 hold on. yeah well, now that ive shared my sad life with u i g2g now so yeah tt4n, luv alwayz and 4evr, famet <3 (pronounced fam-it which means fat me)

ps: more pix 4rm the group date numero dos 4 evry out there that cares!

russel and jenny!

corey and amanda facing forwards (well, the back of the boat) and kim n the red and laura kinda hidden....

tina n mid sentence lol

russel n mid sentence 2 lol

LtoR: carlos and russel!

LtoR: corey and sammy

Current Mood: calm

heyyyy well im so bored but omg the group date yesterday waz soooo fun and omg i luved it! omg i hung out with nicole, megan, and michelle. i rode with justin, megan and nicole rode with tina, and then michelle rode with jamie. so on the way there, we were listening 2 teds ipod cuz he has this thingy where he can hook it up 2 the radio and tune it on2 ne fm channel so he tuned it on 2 88.9 and we listened 2 it so yeah that waz funny. me and justin were talking bout umm lori and casey and brit and other random things. fun fun fun so nehow when we got there we ate lunch which STEVEN, SAMMY, AND COREY had prepared. steven didnt get 2 come 2 the actual date part but he did help make the lunch so yeah. then we sat and talked 4 a lil while then om we went on the pedal boats. omg....that waz the best part evr! ok, we got the 5 seaters so it waz megan, nicole, sammy, michelle and me so @ 1st megan, michelle, and me sat n the back while sammy and nicole pedaled (below)

nehow, the after a while megan waz pedaling and sammy waz pedaling and then nicole waz driving and yeah we ran n2 justins group on purpose while me and megan were pedaling and sammy waz steering (below)

o yeah well it waz gr8 and the talent show waz a hit. evry1 waz mad that me and lori couldnt do the actual cha cha due to the fact that the older folks mite not like the hip action but evry1 waz cracking up during along came jones. yeah and then me and lori were messing with our phones. 2day that sean guy waz there but i sat behind him and he dint look @ me @ all so o well i guess....yeah well g2g now so yeah tt4n luv alwayz and 4evr, me

more pix:

evry1!

LtoR: justin, tedd

a few of us grlz

the rest of the grlz (dont i look so cute shoving cheetos n my mouth?)

corey, amanda, kim, and laura

Current Mood: bored

heyyyyy well 2day iz FRIDAY!!!!!! im srry, im really happy its friday. i get 2 sleep n 2morrow. going on this group date thingy with my church. then im n a talent show @ my church! how fun! well 2day, skool kinda stunk. blech, u kno? math, not 2 fun. we took this test and then we went ovre our hw 4m last nite. how do ppl not undertand sum of the simplest problems?!?! u kno? theres this 1 chica and i swear she iz so dumb i do not understand how she got n the class! shell ask 2 c like more than half the assignment! ayyyyy! o wellz....2day i 4got my phone but its not that bad even tho i am emotionally attached 2 my phone *tear* jk! hehe well last nite @ jwalk it waz so FUN!!!!!! lori and casey and brit all came and i had 2 go 2 the helix vs mm @ mm but it waz all good cuz i hung out with my cuzn 4 the most part but then i saw meagan and then we saw mels and jessica riggins so yeah well i didnt c mels or jessica--lori and casey pointed em out 2 me when they got there. i waz kinda mad tho cuz i had gotten there 2 late 2 c merle but hey thats alrite but nehow when i talked 2 meagan she told me that chris had said that i hadnt given him a very good reason 4 breaking up with him and then he went on how i had said i jus wanted 2 b friends and how he didnt understand if i 'hugged my friends if i held hands with my friends if i kissed my friends' and so i went off on meagan on accident bout how that waz a good nuff reason. i broke up with him 4 many reasons-1 of which i jus likes him as a friend and course i dont kiss my friends! course i dont hold hands with my friends! course i dont hug my friends--well not the way he meant--but then i apologized 2 meagan 4 going off on her.well yeah....then lori casey and me met britany @ jack n the box.....then we went 2 jwalk and the game waz steal the bacon but they rigged it cuz they would put like 2 of the same # on 1 side or put a # on jus 1 side not 2 of the same and yeah well u get the point. well, we all had fun with that and then we went nside and omg the message waz gr8 cuz justin spoke again i luv justin he iz so funny! nehow yeah well the sean guy waznt there so i couldnt c if he really does like me. but nehow. on the way 2 brits house i played jessies grl jus 4 casey that waz funny and then we dropped brit off and drove 2 my house and i showed casey and lori the work thats been done on the house so far and then caseys mom picked em up. justin email me and well heres wat he wrote:

 then 2day waz kyris bday! yeah! and there waz this sports assembly thingy and it waz funny cuz they showed a pic of coach holland when he waz younger--HE HAD A MULLET!!!!! i waz laffing so hard i almost started crying but yeah the class kinda made fun of coach holland and 2day coach holland let us sit out and tan if we wanted so i waz like thqanx coach holland luv ya! and then me and kyri sat out and tanned 4 a lil but the kyri ditched me (who wouldnt) yeah well im so siked bout 2morrow! mayb this sean guy will b there....o wellz, i really wanna kno if helikes me. well im feeling kinda odd now adays....i dunno i jus feel like i cant get enuff of the bible and of devotrionals and well, god. its crazy. all mylife ive never felt this way but now i do. i LUV church and i dont really have that much of a problem listening and understanding the message. its gr8 yet scary, u kno? and then the devotional thing they gave out last sunday, ive kept up on, ive actually started 2 feel a lil bit more confident and ive stopped gossiping as much as i used 2. im so happy 2! yeah well i g2g now so yeah tt4n luv alwayz and 4evr, me

Current Mood: cheerful

heyyyyy well 2day waz ok i guess...this morning woke up @ 7:45--15 minutes earlier than i wanted--but nehow. i woke up cuz my mom waz like jennie theres a mouse n the house (hehe sounds funny) so i like jump outta bed but pull my feet back up on the bed and say where! (i didnt want 2 step on it or nething!) and then she pointed under the table where my skinny cat (reeses) iz batting sumthing round and my fat cat (snickers) iz next 2 me jus watching. so i run 2 get my slippers, slip em on and me and my mom watch as reeses bats this mouse round. then the mouse goes under the cabniet but we thought it went up 2 the attic (theres a small hole entrance thingy behind the cabinet) so snickers iz jus sitting there and reeses go back n2 the attic (not happy her mouse has gotten away). my mom tells me wat had happened b4. apperantly, reeses had once again found her way n2 the attic and had chased the mouse dsown but my mom didnt kno that there waz a mouse. so she reeses iz sitting on the ground next 2 the chair my mom iz n so my mom picks her up and on the other side of her, the mouse. reese had been sitting on its tail so it couldnt go away. so my mom immediately dropped reeses and then thats when she woke me up. then @ lunch my mom called. round 11:00-ish the mouse peeks its head out 4m under the cabinet, snickers iz still sitting next 2 it but my mom cs the mouses head so she pulls the cabinet back and the mouse iz severely injured 4rm reeses so she goes 2 the electricians working on our house and she goes i kno this iznt n ur job description but i have a mouse thats almost dead, do u think u could kill it? so 1 of the dudes hits it on the head--which kills it and says, well, now ive got my lunch! when my mom told me that i waz like EWWWWW but yeah it waz funny. then lunch waz pretty fun and 1 of the dudes that i have 4gotten his name already started teasing me that it waznt crazy green day (2day waz class colors day but i 4got this morning and i put on a green shirt not thinking that 2morrow iz crazy green day) and i jus kinda laffed bout it....yeah then garret he bought 10 pizzas and kyris like u cant eat that whole thing and i said ''ok, lets rethink this. hes a guy so of course he can eat the whole thing!'' and yeah omg it waz funny cuz he took 2 slices and closed the box. then he threw the box on the ground and my cuzn and james were fiting ovr it and im like omg boys. yeah well i g2g now so yeah tt4n luv alwayz and 4evr, me

Current Mood: thirsty

heyyy 2day waz actually a pretty funny day! hehe i actually had sum fun. n math me and gina were texting each other. she texted me 1st and i had my celly between my legs and so it vibrated and jumped like 50 feet n the air but yeah it waz funny then pw i actually had fun! me and and this guy named christian had a cannon ball contest--i won. then me and this other guy named jeremy had a cannon ball contest. then jeremy and this other guy named micheal had a cannon ball contest and i waz the judge of it and jeremy pretty much won. then we watched jeremy do his lil dives and yeah hes kinda funny and yeah....well theres a lot more 2 the story 4 pe and theres also a story 4 break but i jus dont feel like typing that lol yeah well i hope jesse and casey and lori and brit can all come 2 jwalk cuz if they can o ill b so happy cuz well heres the plan:

lori and casey and brit and jesse and me r gonna b talkin laffing joking round watevr and then theyre gonna ''accidentally'' bump me n2 this sean guy, k? and then im gonna say o im srry and then get ''mad'' @ my friends. then ill say im srry again and then i introduce myself then me and the grlz will go and grab a bite 2 eat and while we grab a bite 2 eat jesse gonna say hey so u like jennie? and if this sean guy says yeah then jesse gonna say sumthing bout how he could tell by the way he waz looking @ me or sumthing and how if he think he has a chance with me he has 2 TALK with me and get 2 now me and yeah but if he says no jesse will still say sumhting bout how it looked like it by the way he looked @ me. or sumthing along those lines

hows the plan? i think its gr8. lol i dont really want another bf yet but i jus think it would b kewl if a guy actually likes me. i mean like ive said b4, i dunno Y  ne guyz would like me im very unattractive so hmmm watevr i still can live with it if a guy liked me. id b happier than usual....hehe yeah well gosh no1 evr visits this blog either so i could jus ttly dis myself all the time and no1 could disagree with me either.....haha yeah im so smart jk im not really smart....well, we have STAR testing next week...blech. o wellz, @ least i only have STAR testing4 like 3 DAYS! yeah! yeah ok wellz i g2g now so yeah tt4n, luv alwayz and 4evr, me

Current Mood: tired

heyyyy peeps! yeah well 2day waz ok i suppose i actually talked 2 lori with alex round....didnt want 2 but i guess i gots 2 b nice well i nvited casey and lori and brit 2 jwalk again....lets c how long it takes em 2 respond. i told jesse he could come 2 if he wanted 2 and he promised me that hed remind casey 2 ask bout jwalk. but i dont kno if hes coming. i hope he does cuz mayb i dunno....i jus wanted 2 kno if sean liked me or not cuz its so driving me crazy whether this guy likes me or not. i mean i dont kno y he would.....i mean evry1 can c im ugly and fat and i kno im probably not a very nice person....o well, life goes on, rite? im soooooo bored rite now....and tired. my eyes hurt 4m swimming 2dy. n pe we did the backstroke and me and melissa had a cannonball contest and omg it waz so FUN! and i won like evrytime but thats only cuz ive been taught the best way 2 do a cannonball when not on a diving board and cuz of my weight....i weigh a full 136 pounds ok! and i have this huge flub of stomach...yeah im listening 2 linkin park rite now....my older bro let me stay 4 a lil bit of lunch 2day! yeah i waz so happy....i kinda migrated 4m all my group of friends it weaz funny and nteresting. yep yep....awww man srry i think i have gs 2nite blech i HATE gs!!!! its so boring. omg ok 2day i wore white capris and i waz getting dressed after swimming and then my capris got wet AND THEYRE WHITE so it waz HORRIBLE cuz yeah they were white! and then i asked casey if it u could tell that my pants were wet and b4 she answered jesse waz all like c i told u u were lez! and im like uhhh no....wait, ok fine then, hey jesse can u tell the i got my pants wet and he jus ttly started freakin out but it waz so funny and im like u brought that upon urself! and yeah it waz jus funny. o and then me and devin were all talking mean bout coach holland cuz he says o yeah im jus gonna grade u on effort not ability yet the ppl that cant swim r put n the B group and they cant get ne higher than a b n the class cuz well, they cant swim u kno? well WAT IF THEY R TRYING THEYRE HARDEST?!?!?! o wellz watevr....well i g2g now so yeah tt4n luv alwayz and 4evr, me

ps new poem!

forget the forgotten

forget about love,
forget about hate.
forget about feelings,
forget about fate.
forget about me and you,
we do not exist.
you gave me a chance,
i blew it.
everyone else has moved on,
everyone else has forgotten.
everyone but me.

Current Mood: sad

heyyyyy yeah well 2day waz ok i guess. lori made alex promise not 2 do ne more hand gestures but i still refuse 2 talk 2 him. im jus tired of making evry1 mad. pe waz boring. all kyri felt like doing 2wards the end waz hanging n the shallow end. o well, i guess pe will never b fun. i mean its clear i get on coach hollands nerves so i try not 2 talk 2 him nemore. but hey habits r hard 2 break. i mean i used 2 alwayz talk bout the beach and jus talk 2 him. well not nemore. and then i decided 2 try not 2 talk 2 brian nemore cuz evry1 thinks i like him when i tell em stories that r funny that nvolve brian....i bet u i probably get on his nerves 2.....and i need 2 4get bout brandon. how i dont kno yet. i jus kno my heart doesnt want 2 4get yet but my brain iz ready 2 4get cuz of the pain of missing sum1 u like...mayb even luv. i need 2 stop believeing n luv @ 1st site cuz all it does iz create a pain the cannot b healed....

my heart is split in two
one half with me,
the other with you.
don't you see how i suffer?
i try to hide these tears
but they are too abundant

srry, cruddy poem i kno. told u my poems stink like big time man.....nothing 2 do 2day. hmmm. or say. hmmm....construction-not much happened cept they did a major clean up if the back yard and then they put n my window and my sisters window....thats bout it i guess....like i said nothing much happens n my life and im ALWAYZ bored. watching attila rite now....its pretty good i guess. yeah well g2g so yeah tt4n, luv alwayz and 4evr, me

Current Mood: frustrated

heyyyyyyy well 2day waz a horrible day. evry1 cept kyri  says i have a crush on brian.....i so DO NOT HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM! imagine this:

[1] phone restriction 4 a MONTH
[2] rnt allowed 2 go NEWHERE with friends 4 a MONTH
[3] younger sibs r usually on the ps2 which iz hooked up 2 the only tv n the house on weekends
[4] not allwed 2 watch tv on the weekdays
[5] rents sumtimes on the comp
[6] NO1 EVR EMAILS ME!!!!!

ok so wat am i supposed 2 do? hmmm how bout find sum1 2 talk 2.  i do believe that brian iz the oinly 1 outside of the fam that i alwayz c that talks 2 me and talks n ENGLISH so hmmm i think thats a good reason....so, hes kinda funny and i share my funny stories with my friends so now evry1 thinks i like him. course im going 2 miss him when he leaves. i mean, hey, who wants 2 lose another friend? i have had so many friends move away, become distant, watevr.....so iz there sumthing wrong with that?!?! grrrr....o and i sooooo refuse 2 talk round alex....if i evr talk, hell use his hands 2 do the blah blah blah motion  ....even if i jus say hi. and im 'short and annoying' according 2 him....well hes short 4 a guy! and he gets on like evry1s nerves and hes SOOOOOO IMMATURE! im so ready 2 like leave my lil circl of 'friends' and find other friends 2 hang out with. i talked 2 lori b4 bout the short and annoying part and she never did nething bout that. so 2day when we were walking 2 class lori says hi jennie and i jus wave and smile, dont say nething. so alex then says o shes actually quiet 4 once. so i jus keep walking and loris asking wats wrong then alex gets 2 class so they say goodbye and me and lori continue 2 our classes and she asks again wats wrong and i finally say i refuse 2 talk round ur bf so @ lunch 2day as i waz walking out 2 the carshes like ok i got alex 2 promise not 2 make ne hand gestures 4 2minutes, now u can talk all u want and i said no, im gonna go home good bye...and i jus keep walking and kyri waz like ur not saying bye 2 me and i said srry u were ovr there so i waz gonna say bye ovr there so i say bye 2 her and give her a hug and she already knew i waz upset but grrrr....its like n the group of 'friends' i hang out with its alwayz bf/gf time and never bff time so its like ne1 without bfs or gfs r the social outkasts of the group--like me--yep evr since i broke up with chris ive been ignored and then all my friends have grown closer n theyre bf/gf relationship and further 4m their friends but they dont really realize it. and im gonna stay n my social isolation til sum1 other than kyri and brit express 2 me that they dont want me 2 go back n2 my SI (social isolation). im jus gonna stand by and watch as my friends make choices and all im gonna do iz get good grades n highskool....hopefully go 2 ucdavis and become a vet. yeah, a vet. i wanted 2 b a vet or help abused animals but lori wants 2 help abused animals so i dont want her 2 think im trying 2 copy her. grrrr this life iz so confusing. well im not going 2 jwalk 2nite cuz its ''sooper outreech nite'' where i bring tons of friends cept i dont have ne1 2 bring i nvited lori and casey and brit all like 1 week ahead of time but brit still doesnt kno lori and casey said they dont think they can and nicole waz gonna come but she at least got back 2 me and told me she couldnt cuz of a swim meet....im jus getting so frustrated. the only ppl that actually care bout me outside of my fam r brit and kyri....thats all....and now im gonna go so i can go cry or sumthing...tt4n, luv alwayz and 4evr, me

Current Mood: tired

heyyyyy yeah well im so tired. gs thing 2 do 2day. blech. but hey, @ least i do get 2 b kinda sorta the center of attention. well, i cant stop thinking bout that hott bday party i wanted 2 have on june 17th or sumthing.....watevr day i decided but i told my mom i didnt wanna   celebrate my bday--no presents, no party, nothing. i said this all on monday--march 28th--cuz im such a handful 4 my rents, i dont wanna have a party that will fill up their hands, u kno. but evr since ive been saying o i wish that i could still have that party cuz i really wanna c brandon   and  i wanna go2 the each 4 sure....well, o wellz....i guess. o andi think that it would b so kewl if i could make this beach mix of all these beach songs--oldies and non-oldies hehe--but that will never happen. well turns out ill still b cing brian cuz he wont b gone til like monday or tuesday or sumthing. ooooooo guess wat?!?!?! i mite b able 2 go 2 this field hockey camp and learn more skills and techniques ovr the summr now think of this....running my booty off, losing weight learning more field hockey skills, working out ovr the summer and then think of this beach, swim suit...o ill look so hott! jk...omg 2day lunch waz actually fun...ill jus tell u the funny part tho....well, 1st i hafta tell u the not 2 funny part aka the info part. i had jus put on sum lotion and drank sum of kyris coke. water on the outside of the coke can and lotion DO NOT MIX....nehow, kyri said it waz sooo hott and im like yeah i am and i started laffing and she jus kept talking bout how she wanted 2 wear her jacket and then suddenly she goes no, i never said U were hott and then i drank her soda again (once again, water on the outside of the coke can and lotion DO NOT MIX) and so i yelled out hey evry1, kyri says im hott! and then i start laffing and this 1 dud who i dont even kno likes 2 joke round and hes like yeah ur hott and im like wat and then i gave him a high 5 and hes like ewww and ur hand iz sweaty 2 and im like oops, that waz 4m the soda can and lotion...hehe yeah it waz funny wellz i g2g now so tt4n, luv alwayz and 4evr, me

Current Mood: sad

4evr single
4evr lonely
4evr nothing

well brian waznt here 2day and darn i didnt get 2 ask 4 the cd so i have no idea wat 2 do....if i c him 2morrow ill say "uhhhh brian u kno how u said i could borrow that 1 mix cd? u said u were hoping 2 b done by wednesday which means i wont really c u nemore so could u bring it 2morrow and ill have my cuzn burn it. if i cant get it back 2 u 2day, u can jus stop by and get it or sumthing 2morrow" yeah i guess....srry, i jus really want that cd! but o wellz. my sis really wants me 2 get it really badly and shes kinda making me mad so im ready 2 say u think ur getting a copy? u kno? im srry i had a bad day @ skool. were starting swim n pe and i have these major ear problems. i mean its like if my head goes under water and i get water n my ear, if i dont get it out all the way i will seriously get an ear nfection and i cant wear ear plugs cuz those things hurt! like mega bad! but when i asked devin melissa and kyri if 1 of em would mind staying n the shallow end so i wont hafta take the test, they all said no and then rite n front of me they jus talked bout wat theyre gonna do n the deeper end aka group A and i almost started crying cuz i really do feel like ive fallen back n2 social isolation and i cant get out of it. i waz a loner n middle skool and now im becoming a loner again....me and lori rnt as close of friends as b4. alex hates me--im 'short and annoying' o and i talk 2 much....i dont confide much n casey nemore, i dont talk 2 jesse much nemore kyri and i r sorta-kinda-but-not-2-much drifting away as friends....i hardly talk 2 brit as much cuz of my phone restriction and no1 evr emails me.....yeah im a stupid loner....fat and ugly. well lori said i should ask mr dude that stares @ me 2 the sadie hawkins but i refuse cuz

[1] im not the kind of grl that can jus go up 2 a boy and start talking. i hafta have a support group      i guess
[2] i doubt he likes me. y would he? he probably jus stares @ me cuz i act like im high or sumthing

well i definitely wont b cing brian 2day cuz the other 2 workers r packing up and yeah o wellz.....srry....hehe im so tired and im super bored. dang brian. i havent seen him 4 ummmmmm 4 days and then im so siked that i get 2 talk 2 him cuz i dont have nething else 2 do but then hes not here....he waz here this morning but he waz still n his car and it would jus b kinda weird if i went up 2 him while he waz still n his car.....so i kinda stalled 4 time but he still didnt get out of his car....so i waz like o ill talk2 him later. and then hes not here when i get home! o well....ill live....miss brandon still   .....gosh my life iz so starting 2 turn upside down and i jus wanna cry   but cant cuz the tears wont come out and cuz i dont have newhere 2 cry. o well, im a fat loner....so tt4n, me